To Dr

I came to see you Feb 22 because I wanted someone to re-evaluate me. 

I don't want more of the medications I've had already. 

I've had doctors say that the oil spill never hurt anyone.  

What do they know?

I hope you will listen.

I worked on the Exxon Valdez Oil Spill as a laborer, 1989. 

When at the Dayville Dump some bad smelling chemical

- like the smell you have when you wash radiators...

spilled on me. 

I was trying to triple red bag this open 5-gallon bucket of chemical that showed up there.

It spilled on me melting my gloves and boots; my hands and feet have been itching and not healed since, as you saw

Since then I've also had blood showing up in my urine.  I had copies from the Glennallen Clinic placed in my file at your clinic.

When someone encouraged me to see you in February I was feeling like digging 3 holes in the ground, for me and my 2 dogs & ending it all.  Come to think of it, I'd already dug the holes.

Thank you for ordering blood work; 

I would still like to be checked for hemolytic anemia;

 If the chemical had the poison in it; that’s what I’m supposed to have

(red counts were 4.59 – OK by your lab, but just barely?), 

4.32 & 4.53 July/2003

But I have other stuff, too:

I used to be able to work 16-18 hour days and not think twice about it.

Now I can only work 7-8 hours in a day and I feel half damn croaked.

I loose my G Damn temper way quick.  Dan's cut me off on "Coffee Hour" more than once.

I feel different the hell than the way I used to.

I can’t keep any moisture in my skin.

My eyes?  I can't see.  I can see far, but I can't see to read.

One doctor said I had a hole in my eye and there wasn’t anything that could be done for it.   

Is there a specialist that could check this out?

I've been on my own since I was 13 years old.

I am self taught and used to love to read, when I could see;

Every night I would read a few hundred pages.

Now I sit home alone and bored; it's damn aggravating.

I can't sleep neither.

It makes me more lonely than I would be - living alone.

I can't find any household help and that makes me damn angry too.

I am pissed off and feel the hell like giving up

(A helping person uses other words for how I feel:  depressed & suicidal)

The way I figure it, it's not going to help me all that much,

but it may help the next guy

& the little children.

So, if you think the VA or Medicare will pay for the chemical tests

could you order them?  I would like to have that done, too.

When you find out all about it, since I've had too much chemical stuff could you find some way to help without more chemicals?   -S

July, 2003 update - collapsing - spend a week in the hospital

October, 2003 update - heart racing - then nothing.

Headaches?  

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